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so i know a certain band from the record label i used to work for once said, "if you were heartbroken you would be dead".  but at this point in life i think i'd rather be dead than heartbroken.  atleast if i was dead i wouldn't have to feel any of the stuff i'm feeling.  pain and heartbreak are terrible things.

i'm completely numb to everything.
i forget to breathe unless someone tells me too.
i forget to sleep.
i forget to eat.
if i had a cut i believe i'd even forget to bleed.

why do i even post on this thing?  its not like anyone even wastes their time reading it.

Current Location: someplace i never want to be
Current Music: Elliott Smith-XO

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and 2nd update?!?!?!?!  i must be bored.

so i walked in my college graduatation yesterday and it freaked me out.  i'm not actually graduating yet, but it still freaked me out to walk across that stage and get the cover for my diploma.  i know i say "oh, i'm so old" all the time, but yesterday made me realize just whats goin on in my life.  i've been in school for the past 20years of my life and now its almost over.  i don't know if i'm ready to be a true "adult" yet.  i feel so young and naive, but so old and unwise at the same time.  i want to go back to being a freshman and taking more time before "growing up"

on another note, we got a couch!  and holy fuck is it comfortable.  and big.

Current Location: home
Current Mood: indescribable
Current Music: Bayside- We'll Be Ok

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thats right, i finally got my shit together and posted on this thing.  the new apartment is AMAZING!.  its so huge we still don't know what to do with all the space.  i seriously have my own closet.  how ridiculous is that?!?!?!

in other news, fuck school.

Current Location: the city by the lake
Current Mood: blank blank
Current Music: cinematic sunrise

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